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*sigh*
mood: 
anxious
anxious*sorry kung taglish pero mas madami english*
Hmm..The last few days have been, weird? I'm happy with my life but I do feel like something is missing.
Another loss in YFC community, ate Monique-the HPV of Siena College. I really don't know her personally, but I do remember texting her one time because of a friend. Why am I mentioning her? Cause my friends are greatly affected & I know what it feels to lose someone. Anyway, I know she is a great loss to the school she is handling, West B (where Siena is) & East A (she is from the community), to YFC & to everyone she knew. Sayang, di ko man lang siya naka sama sa SHOUT. She's with God now so I hope she is happy up there. Last month, Nikki from BDC went away, too. Tapos nalaman ko na ung nag worship leader last sector con, kasama na rin ni God. Scary, it really seems na di natin hawak yung time natin sa Earth. Like what Friday said in Robinson Crusoe, "All men die, what matters is how we die". At least they died after serving for like years.
In my studies, everything is just FINE. I don't care if my chemistry grade for this quarter is a bit low because of that IP. Up to now, I haven't confirmed Leah's news last sunday. If that IS true, I'll be so happy. Sure, they helped out & did their part, but I'm the one who spent nights in front of this computer typing words & numbers. In our streams class, we are still stuck with chapter 2-Review of Related Literature. Just imagine, there are only a few weeks, let's say a month, before the finals. And we have to conduct interviews.
It's fun in school today. DPS is run by students :)) Seriously, they replaced almost EVERYONE-the President down to the teachers with students. I was asked to be a student teacher for Social Studies, but I turned the offer down. I have to teach 5 classes from 7.30 to 3.30 in the afternoon plus one of them is the honors' class in our year level. That is just crazy. I know that most Magbanua know I'm good in Social but that would not be a good reason to accept the offer. I'm not "teacher material". I'm imagining that Magbanua would teach me more than I can teach them.
YFC DPS camp is on the go :) Ma'am Ventura finally signed the letters (thank God!). She wants the schedule of activities during the event & the list (she said reply slips though) of participants. We started advertising room to room and we're going to give the letters tomorrow. I'm just so excited & full of hope for the camp (thanks freshmen!). I just pray that I can do my duties there properly :))
Personally, I'm having lots of thoughts for every aspect in my life. As I am gaining new friends, my connection to my other friends is slowly dying. I remember the campfire song in GSP-make new friends but keep the old. I know it's me, I should learn to balance my time between them. That is one of my problem nowadays. I'm spending more time on my service for God and less on my service for my country-GSP. I really miss GSP. I became so attached to YFC that I didn't saw that I was slipping away from girl scouts. I have dreams for both orgs in school. I want both to continue even after I graduate high school (college would be better). Then there are these feelings that are really, really indescribable. I know I can let him go, but there is something preventing from doing that.
Sorry if the paragraphs have no connection with each other. See, even my blog entry reflects what is happening to me right now.
In my studies, everything is just FINE. I don't care if my chemistry grade for this quarter is a bit low because of that IP. Up to now, I haven't confirmed Leah's news last sunday. If that IS true, I'll be so happy. Sure, they helped out & did their part, but I'm the one who spent nights in front of this computer typing words & numbers. In our streams class, we are still stuck with chapter 2-Review of Related Literature. Just imagine, there are only a few weeks, let's say a month, before the finals. And we have to conduct interviews.
It's fun in school today. DPS is run by students :)) Seriously, they replaced almost EVERYONE-the President down to the teachers with students. I was asked to be a student teacher for Social Studies, but I turned the offer down. I have to teach 5 classes from 7.30 to 3.30 in the afternoon plus one of them is the honors' class in our year level. That is just crazy. I know that most Magbanua know I'm good in Social but that would not be a good reason to accept the offer. I'm not "teacher material". I'm imagining that Magbanua would teach me more than I can teach them.
YFC DPS camp is on the go :) Ma'am Ventura finally signed the letters (thank God!). She wants the schedule of activities during the event & the list (she said reply slips though) of participants. We started advertising room to room and we're going to give the letters tomorrow. I'm just so excited & full of hope for the camp (thanks freshmen!). I just pray that I can do my duties there properly :))
Personally, I'm having lots of thoughts for every aspect in my life. As I am gaining new friends, my connection to my other friends is slowly dying. I remember the campfire song in GSP-make new friends but keep the old. I know it's me, I should learn to balance my time between them. That is one of my problem nowadays. I'm spending more time on my service for God and less on my service for my country-GSP. I really miss GSP. I became so attached to YFC that I didn't saw that I was slipping away from girl scouts. I have dreams for both orgs in school. I want both to continue even after I graduate high school (college would be better). Then there are these feelings that are really, really indescribable. I know I can let him go, but there is something preventing from doing that.
Sorry if the paragraphs have no connection with each other. See, even my blog entry reflects what is happening to me right now.
confused
amused